The Journey is What's Important

Mumford & Sons

Reminder

Don't let me darken your door
It's not what I came here for
No it's not what I came here for

And I won't hear you cry when I'm gone
I won't know if I'm doing you wrong
I never know if I'm doing you wrong

Constant reminder of where I can find her
A light that might give up the way
Is all that I'm asking for
Without her I'm lost
Oh my love don't fade away

So watch the world tear us apart
A stoic mind and a bleeding heart
You never see my bleeding heart

and your lights always shining on
and I've been travelling oh so long
I've been travelling oh so long

Constant reminder of where I can find her
A light that might give up the way
Is all that I'm asking for
Without her I'm lost
Oh my love don't fade away

Oh my love don't fade away

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It's almost... Funny. How this new Mumford and Sons album is almost a soundtrack to the year I've had. Almost scary in a way, when you think about it. The truth is, I wish I understood more about this year. Had a little more closure on it all.

... It's been an interesting ride, and I'm tired from it all. Every day feels exhausting, regardless of how much  I really do.

It's something that I think is going to take time, the changing of the seasons even the changing of the year to heal. Talking about it just sort of... Helps it along. But it does not heal the wound.

I still feel as if I have a hole in my heart that only some things can temporarily fill before it spills out the back. The walls are fragile and can only hold so much right now.

I miss those I love. I love those I miss.

I wish I could reach out and hold on tight to the things that keep running away from me.

I think I am beginning to really understand why I've gone through all of this. I've said it before, but the reality is only starting to set in.

It's all part of the journey. This has all happened to teach me something. Let me reiterate that: something. Right now, I have no idea what that something is. My faith this year has been tested repeatedly. I hate that, too.

I hate being tested like that. I hate having my soul twisted into knots that hold me fast and tighten whenever I want to break free.

It's just one of those days, I think. Or one of those weeks... One where an escape would be wonderful. Not into video games, not into my own head (God forbid); but out into the world. Disappear and leave it all behind. Find it later, but just leave.

I wish I could.

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Mumford & Sons

Hopeless Wanderer

You heard my voice
I came out of the woods by choice
Shelter also gave their shade
But in the dark I have no name
So leave that click in my head
And I will remember the words that you said
Left a clouded mind and a heavy heart
But I was sure we could see a new start

So when your hope's on fire
But you know your desire
Don't hold a glass over the flame
Don't let your heart grow cold
I will call you by name
I will share your road

But hold me fast, hold me fast
'Cause I'm a hopeless wanderer
And hold me fast, Hold me fast
'Cause I'm a hopeless wanderer

I wrestled long with my youth
We tried so hard to live in the truth
But do not tell me all is fine
When I lose my head, I lose my spine

So leave that click in my head
And I will remember the words that you said
You brought me out from the cold
Now, how I long, how I long to grow old

So when your hope's on fire
But you know your desire
Don't hold a glass over the flame
Don't let your heart grow cold
I will call you by name
I will share your road

But hold me fast, hold me fast
'Cause I'm a hopeless wanderer
And hold me fast, Hold me fast
'Cause I'm a hopeless wanderer
I will learn, I will learn to love the skies I'm under
I will learn, I will learn to love the skies I'm under
The skies I'm under